The gift of loving and enjoying life to the full

Another thing I want to tell you is how much life on earth matters, how much your life matters. I was so shocked to realize how every little thing I did on earth had some repercussion Up Here, how everything mattered. Stuff that nobody knew about, even thoughts and secret prayers I’ve had, it all mattered. So don’t minimize your life on this earth. Everything counts, so don’t despise it, don’t get weary. Take time to enjoy this beautiful life, every little thing, every sunset, every beautiful sight. Breathe in the sea air. It’s so beautiful and everything you enjoy will strengthen you and give you fresh inspiration. It’s the Lord’s love for you, that’s His way of saying “I love you”. Like He revealed it to you way back before you knew Him, when you were in the Himalayas, that He had created it all for your pleasure, as a sign and token of His love for you. Isn’t it wonderful? Enjoy the music, enjoy the colors, the seasons, the wind, the waves, the sights, the sounds, the smells, the food, enjoy it all. ‘Cause it’s special. Of course life in Heaven is also very, very special, but life on earth is unique, so don’t miss any of it. I’m so thankful the Lord showed me to enjoy it all while I was there. I’m so thankful for this gift He had given me. I loved the life He had given me.

Keep following the Lord step by step, keep trusting Him for everything, keep depending on Him, He’ll continue to lead and guide you, He’ll always take care of you, He’ll always supply for you.

The importance of prayers

Never get tired of praying, Mommy. That used to be your very strong point, and I want you to know not to let it go, I never imagined how important prayers were until I got here. I mean I had heard it, I knew it in my mind, but I never fully grasped their importance. I wish I hadn’t been so critical of you when you would spend so much time in prayer.  It’s such a powerful weapon. Much more powerful than worrying for sure, or even than trying to figure out ways to change things in the physical. The first reflex to problems should always be to shoot a prayer to the Lord, ‘cause He’ll then go to work right away on it, He’ll send some helper, He’ll move things and make it happen. Even if it takes time, it will happen. I know it’s not humanly possible to pray for everything all the time, but I’d say whenever you face a problem or think of something or someone, just shoot up a prayer for that problem or that person. Even sometimes at night if you dream about someone, always send a prayer for that person. You may not know why, but most likely she needs help in one form or another.

Holidays

I’m so happy Mommy that you and Dad can have this holiday, this vacation. I’ve worked hard at it. Well, not so hard really, the Lord did it all, but I really wanted it to happen and it makes me very happy. It’s nice that you can stop like this and get needed rest and enjoy God’s wonderful creation. I wish I had taken the time to visit M., she would have driven me around, I would have had such a good time. Well, I’m thankful I get to accompany you a lot of times, and I visit her sometimes too. She’s such a special lady. I’ve gotten to know her daughter a bit since coming here. Heaven is such an amazing place. I’m thankful though I got to come to earth for these few years, ‘cause it changed my perspective, it’s given me so much more insight into people’s hearts and minds, and it’s helpful. We each have our special mission and our special purpose for which the Lord has created us. We don’t always understand why some things happen, why some people’s lives are shorter than others. Like with my little brother, I don’t really know why he never got a chance to have an earthly life, except that he did help me from the spirit when I was on earth. We’re best friends now. Isn’t it neat how the Lord worked it all out and engineered it all so that I would have a little brother when I came to Heaven? We’re both waiting for you to come and join us, and we’ll have a family reunion then. I’m happy to have met my grand-parents and great grand-parents, they’re so cute, I love them so much, but it’s nice to have a brother as well.

On the other side of the veil

31/07/13 I’ve changed a lot, being on this side of the veil has changed me a lot. I’ve been through various stages, the Lord has been so patient with me, He’s just let me go at my own pace, and He supplied helpers along the way to assist me, to teach me what I needed to know, to help me overcome some things that were hindering me, also to help some people I wanted to help but didn’t feel I could handle by myself. You know something really, really neat, is that we’re never alone in Heaven. You remember how much I enjoyed being alone at times, but I also suffered from loneliness, it was weird and I didn’t really know how to cope with these contradictory feelings. But here, in this realm, there’s always someone special to buddy with, depending on what I need to do or what I need to learn, or what I’m going through. Heaven is all perfection of course, but I’m not, ha! I still have so much to learn, but you know how much I love learning, so it’s not a problem for me at all, on the contrary. I just love what I learn here. It’s hard sometimes, it’s not like everything comes super easy like I had imagined, I have to work at things, and I often need help, but it’s so cool. Jesus is always present, He’s so wonderful and I have found such peace, the peace I longed for but could never attain, it’s here with me forever now and it’s really wonderful. Sometimes I see things that are difficult for me, like when you’re sad, or to see F. struggling so hard, but the difference is that I still have this peace, I know the Lord’s gonna take care of it all in the end. It’s still hard for me to see people suffer, especially the people I loved, and especially if they’re suffering because of me, but then the Lord’s peace makes it easier to bear, and I can do something to help them, which is also wonderful.

Happy Mother's Day!

12/5/13 Mommy, I want to wish you Happy Mother’s Day, and I’ll wish you again on the 26th, and every single day of your life! I love you so much, Mommy! You’ve been the best mom ever. I couldn’t have wished for a better mom. You’ve given me so much! So much love, so much of everything. You gave me your life, really, you taught me everything you knew, you respected me, you gave me love and freedom to be myself as well. You taught me about Jesus, that was the best part, really, the best of all, ‘cause that kept me through everything. He was there all the time, holding me, helping me, whispering to me. And I owe it to you, Mommy, ‘cause you’re the one who taught me about Jesus. I can’t even remember a time I didn’t know about Jesus. And when I tried at 15 to declare myself an atheist, for one horrible year, He still came through for me, and the reason I could recognize His voice among so many others was because of you, Mommy, or rather thanks to you, because you taught me how to recognize His voice. All my doubts fled away after that experience, that was awesome. So I want to thank you, again and again, for being my mommy and for all you’ve done for me. I love you forever and I’m so thankful for you.

Happy birthday Mommy

16/04/2013 I love you so much and it makes me happy when I can be around you and participate in what you’re doing, and throw some help here and there. You know, by helping you, the Lord is giving me a chance to continue what I let go off on earth. It’s never too late with Jesus. He always makes a way to redemption. He always makes it possible for us to make amends, to receive forgiveness, to make up for what we missed or where we failed. He’s that wonderful. We may miss some of the blessings, some of the rewards, but there’s always hope, there’s always a way, it’s never too late.

Ok here’s my chance! I want to tell you something. I know it may not be easy for you to do, but I’d like to ask you to try something. Can you try to no longer be sad about me? ‘Cause so much precious time and emotions are wasted on being sad. When I’m with you, or when I tune in to you, I’d like to see you happy and fulfilled. I’d like to continue helping you as much as I can, and I’d like for all this sadness to be gone, you know. ‘Cause when you’re sad it makes me sad and it’s a vicious cycle. But I think the Lord has brought enough peace to your heart now, I think the devil has been defeated; I think you’ve made peace with yourself as well. It’s like, whatever your sins have been, the Lord has forgiven you, and I have forgiven you. So I’d really like to move on and have fun together now. Can we? Can we enjoy each other? There’s nothing holding us back now. You have nothing to worry about any more concerning me, so we should be able to simply love each other and enjoy each other and I can help you as much as I’m able and we can have a great time together. It will make me so happy, because the more I partake of your life, the more it helps me make up for what I lost. It’s my chance to redeem myself. So if you want to make me happy, let’s turn the page and let’s start on a new journey together, hand in hand. I can finally become all the help you wished I could be for you. Well, it will be a bit different of course, but it will be better, ‘cause I can actually do more from Up here than I could from earth. So what do you say? Can we try? I’d really like this year to be a new and a fresh start, and to walk this road with you, for you to feel me next to you, maybe not all the time, but a good chunk of the time, and we can share this life the Lord’s given you. This is what you can do for me, you can now share your life with me. The life I left behind, Jesus can give it back to me through you. And what better life than the life of service you have chosen. The life I wanted to go back to once I had graduated. Well I did graduate alright. I don’t know what kind of present that is for you. I did want to give you a birthday present. I love giving presents, especially to you. I’m glad you’re wearing this silver chain I gave you, and the earrings I gave you and those I left behind. It makes me happy, you know. I love you so much. Well, the Lord told me that was the best present I could give you. So here it is: I will share as much of your life and live as much of your life with you as the Lord will let me. Of course, I’m committed to helping in whatever ways He needs me, but apparently, you are important to Him, and He does want me to be with you a good chunk of time. So let’s live this life together. I know it’s always been your heart’s desire, to have your children by your side, sharing your life. Well here I am. This is my birthday present to you, to be by your side. I love you. So no more sadness, promise? Only joy and happiness and happy memories. I’ll help you finish my blog quickly, so we can close off the sad ending, and I’ll help you give it a real upbeat final touch that will lead people to Heaven. I love you, Mommy. Happy birthday! We’re having a big feast up Here today in your honor. You’re a special person to the Lord, you know. You have helpers who are very thankful to be with you. All sins forgiven and forgotten! It’s a new day! I love you. 

Heavenly assignments

4/3/2013 I can’t regret the earthly life I missed, I just can’t go there, the Lord is not asking me to, on the contrary He’s been so gentle, so kind, He’s healed my heart and all the wrong that was troubling me and making me miserable, He’s healed it all, so I’m really OK. I’m learning so much, and I get to experience and do all I wanted, and even more, way more. It’s beyond imagination. I have assignments too now, I’m helping and it’s cool. I really enjoy doing that. I know you appreciate my help, and I also want to make you proud, and I think you’ll be proud and it’ll  make you happy when you get to see what I’ve done from Here, the different people and situations I’ve helped. Well, it’s all only Jesus, but it’s very fulfilling for me to have a part in it. I actually like it and find it very fulfilling. Jesus knows best, and He knows how to turn into good even the worse we do as humans. He’s just amazing and I’m so thankful to have known Him. It’s made things so much easier for me. Of course He’s wonderful for everybody who comes Up here, but it’s been much easier for me than for others who didn’t really know Him so well, so intimately. So I’m thankful, Mommy, that you told me about Jesus from when I was real little. I love you.