31/05/12 There are so many
suicides nowadays. Every single day. So many. People are driven to despair,
either because they don’t know the Lord, or because they know the Lord and know
it’s the only way out. Suicide is a sin, but Jesus paid for our sins, even
suicide. His mercy is everlasting. When people come before their time, they
just have to learn from that side how to overcome what they didn’t while on
earth. They have to heal. For most people, it will take as long as it would
have if they had stayed on earth. If they’re saved, they won’t be able to enjoy
the fullness of Heaven until their time has come. They have to heal first, and
then help the people who remained on earth that either caused their suicide, or
that got hurt by it. It’s all loving, but it’s a process they have to go
through. And if they didn’t know the Lord, they have to get to know him. They
have to learn about the world of the spirit, about the forces of good and evil.
The spirit world is very complex, but it’s also very simple. And it’s very
fair, very just and righteous. God does not make mistakes. Even when it appears
to humans that He does, He really doesn’t. He didn’t make any mistake with me.
Yes He could have healed me, when we prayed so many times. He used this
sickness to keep me dependant on Him, so I wouldn’t forget Him.
I wanted to be so strong, so independent. But Jesus made me weak.
Jesus picked me up. Just like that verse He gave you for me, when my
father and my mother forsake me, the Lord will take me up. And up He took me,
and I’ve been so happy. So that’s the happy ending. So very happy ending. Or
happy beginning. I missed the rest of my life on earth, but I did accomplish a
good chunk of what the Lord wanted me to, maybe even all that I was meant to
accomplish, so it’s all good.
I want to make your load lighter, I want to take away your sadness. I
know you miss me. I know it’s hard to think of how we could have spent this
time together, you helping me get set up and all. But I’m happy now, happier
than I would have ever been on earth. I loved life so much. But I love life Up
Here even more.
You need to stop thinking and analyzing about what could have happened
and what you should have done or not done. You need to look at the facts today,
that I’m healthy and happy and in the best possible place (and school) there is
or ever will be. Yes, I would like to leave my mark on this earth. Yes, I’m
happy for everything you’re working on so I won’t be forgotten. I wanted my
life to make a difference, and I’m happy you’re there to proclaim it. It means
a lot to me and it helps with my healing, that my life was not in vain, that I
did do something for the Lord. I need you to highlight the positive and the
beauty of my life, everything that lifted up Jesus and helped others. I need
that. So thank you for working on it. Keep thinking on the good, ok? I know it
makes you happy. We have so much to be thankful for. No one wants to remember
the bad. Or the suffering. It’s all forgotten now. Jesus is here to bring
healing to us all. He’s just wonderful. Beyond words. I only wish I had given
Him more praise and trust while I was on earth. He deserves so much more. I
love Him and He loves me. And that’s all that matters.
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