Happy Christmas!

23/12/12 I want to wish you a Happy Christmas now, cause I know it’s gonna be busy for you the next few days. I’ll be coming along, I want you to know that, even though you already know. I’ll do my best to help. I miss you and I miss the kids. I remember the last Christmas I had there in Congo, and even though I was a bit sick, it’s been one of my best Christmases, just like the Lord had told me. I felt I really made a difference and brought these kids love and joy. It makes me happy to think about it, that’s why I want to come along this year too. And don’t worry, I’ll have plenty of time to celebrate in Heaven too! Actually, most of our celebration I think is going to be celebrating what humans do to make Jesus happy! So it’s all part of it. I’m so happy you’re celebrating this year. I love you.

I understand also better that you all miss me and I’m learning to accept it, I’m learning not to be sad over it, but to receive it as an act of love, your love for me. I wish we could chat for hours on end, there’s so much I’d like to share with you, but I’m realizing it’s not practical or even possible to do so. I need to let you attend to what you have to do, and also part of Heaven’s wonders is the discovery of it when people get here. You already know a lot about Heaven, but knowing too much wouldn’t be so beneficial. Someone explained that to me, when I was getting frustrated that I couldn’t spend more time with you to describe it all. It’s actually hard to put into words. That’s why there are other artistic forms to communicate, through music, songs, paintings, sculptures, poetry. But still, even though some art does communicate what Heaven is like, it’s so limited, and so hard so communicate precisely what it’s like. It’s way beyond words, beyond feelings, beyond colors, beyond music. It’s all encompassing, all healing, pure beauty, pure ecstasy. I actually want to dedicate eternity to it, trying to communicate to humans what Heaven’s like. I want to advertise Heaven. Right now I’m helping people, you guys of course and those  the Lord asks me to. And I’m helping on the creation team. But I have so much to learn. And I’m learning! I’m studying. I’m realizing that some of the stuff I want to do for myself will have to wait a bit until after the millennium, ‘cause time is kind of short and there’s a lot to do right now to help people on earth. So I have to focus on that. So I’m learning how to best advertise Heaven, how to help people come to the Lord while there’s still time, how to communicate things about Heaven to artists and people in general. It’s a challenge, but I love it. It’s really the most important thing, helping people find Jesus, loving people, pointing them towards Heaven, and giving people glimpses of Heaven through different means. That’s what I’m focusing on right now. There’s so much I want to do, that hasn’t changed, it’s even grown bigger than you can imagine. But what’s exciting, is that I know that I’ll eventually get around to it all. ‘Cause time will be no more. While earth’s still around, I have to tune in to that and time has its place and it’s ticking away. But I love being busy, you know that. Thank you for making this Christmas special for so many people. Thank you also for all you continue to do for me. I love you so much. I can’t even tell you how much I love you. My saddest Christmas ever was the one I spent in France without you. And the one before that was one of my best ones. Although all my childhood Christmases have also been wonderful. You made them wonderful. Thank you. I love you.

Twenty first birthday

9/12/12 Thanks for the birthday greetings, and all the love and all you continue to do for me, for publishing all these things I left behind. I do hope it will help someone. I would never have done it myself, but I’m happy you’re doing it for me, prolonging my life in this way and hopefully touching other lives, bringing them closer to Jesus. There’s so much I’d like to tell you and share with you. It’s so neat, I was able to get a peek into my former heavenly birthday parties. You remember all the ones you used to tell me about when I was little. Well it was very real, so amazing and so cool. They have it all recorded here, so I’m having fun looking through them, both what I did on earth and what happened in Heaven at the time. That’s loads of fun. Mommy, you gave me such a good life. I had such a happy childhood.

I’m getting to meet so many people, artists and musicians and also simple people, missionaries. I’m so interested in everything, you know me. I’m also getting to know my little brother. I had no idea he was watching over me all these years. I remember well about him, I used to talk to him when I was little, but then I forgot. But he was there. We’re having fun. I’m so happy he’s here, Mommy. He was here to welcome me. It’s really nice when you have someone from your personal family to welcome you to Heaven and show you around. There are my grandparents and my great grandparents also of course, and they’re wonderful. It’s really nice to get to know them also. But Batir was special. I don’t know yet what’s cooking for me today, but it’s gonna be good. I really don’t feel like I deserve any fuss, I feel like a big blow it in so many ways, but all I receive is love, love, love from every side and from everyone. I feel so undeserving, but it sure feels good. Love heals up everything, every heartache, every hurt, every pain, every sin, every mistake. Love is so wonderful. I’ve been receiving so much love that I’m all healed up now. Last year my birthday was a bit different, ‘cause you were all grieving so much, and I was with you all, doing my best to comfort everyone but I wasn’t very good at it. Also I was still in my healing stage, in my waterfall place. I may drop by there today, actually. Maybe I can help comfort some people who are there. Or chat with them. The Lord’s love is what comforts them, not me. But chatting helps. I know it helped me when different ones came to chat with me.

If you have time later, you can tune in and I can tell you what my party’s like. You know me, I’m not much of a party girl. So we’ll see what happens. In any case, it feels good to be 21. I used to be so scared of turning 21 for some reason when I was on earth. But here, not scared at all. I love you.

(My 2^nd birthday in Heaven) It was wonderful of course, as you can imagine. It was real special. The Lord knows I don’t particularly enjoy big flashy parties, so it was just perfect. He had invited some special people, people I always desired I could have met while on earth, people I had a particular interest in. It was real special, that these people would even come to my birthday, ‘cause I’m just nobody. And each one got to share something with me that was of pure interest to me. I’m sure you can guess who some of them were. And you know what, since then, I’ve been able to visit some of them again and learn more from them. So yes, Einstein was there, and it was amazing what a closeness I felt towards him, truly amazing. I mean I was in awe that he would be there in person to my birthday, and he was so humble, so simple. Now he’s someone who knows about condemnation. I’ll have to tell you more about what he shared another time. He reminded me of the time I sat on his lap so to speak, on the lap of the huge statue of him in Washington, DC. We both chuckled about it, it was fun.

Then Mozart was there, Bach as well, and we enjoyed such heavenly music together, it was so neat ‘cause I also got to see which angels were inspiring them when they composed, oh it was truly awesome. Someone else was Steve Jobs, whom I had met earlier, so you see, he did make it to Heaven. Leonardo da Vinci was there also. I mean it was incredible. It was a real nice setting, I actually was in my mansion and these people came over, just as if they had planned a surprise party for me. We had snacks and drinks and relaxed and chatted, with heavenly music all around. It was just wonderful. I wish you’d been there, I think you would have really enjoyed it as well. We even danced. Yep, I was never much of a dancer, but in Heaven it’s really fun, ‘cause I can float if I want, and it just comes easily, to let the music carry me, it’s quite pleasurable actually, a brand-new experience. Dickens was there also, and Tolkien. Victor Hugo also, as even though I never got to read his novels in French, he really wanted to come and knew I would love to meet him. A very, very special and great man, yet so humble now before the Lord. He actually hugged me as if I was his daughter and he told me he helped you these past months, isn’t that true? He said he’d love to meet up again with me and teach me about writing poetry, although he said the Lord had given me real talent and he’d like to help me improve on it so I can help inspire other writers still on earth, isn’t that neat? There were also some famous French painters, like Monet and Renoir. Oh that was so wonderful! Jesus is truly wonderful. And do you remember Yusef, the little boy from Kikimi who died of malaria? Well he came too! He hugged me and he was so sweet and so happy to see me in Heaven. There were other people too, and of course everyone who knew me said something nice about me, like something I did that made their life happier and it was so special to hear of course. It was interesting too, ‘cause some of these people were already in Heaven when I was born, so it was kind of funny and unreal that I could have done something for them, it was more the other way around. But anyway it was wonderful and I had a great time. I was going to say the most wonderful birthday ever, but I don’t want you to feel bad as if the birthdays you organized for me on earth were not nice, but then the Lord told me to say it anyway, not to worry, that you’d understand of course that birthdays in heaven are better than on earth. I love you xxx.

First anniversary

14/11/12 Your sins do not erase the love you had or the good you did, it’s the other way around; your love erased your sins. Your love for me erased the mistakes you made. Keep your mind on the beauty of Heaven, on the positive, and don’t fall back into the darkness.

I’ve had a beautiful life. And I’m thankful I’m here on this side. I can do so much to help people. It’s not like it’s easier, but it’s greater. It can be hard also, ‘cause people are not so tuned in to the spirit world, so it’s sometimes hard to break through. Even with you, it’s not so easy. You’re still so busy, and your hurts kind of hinder you from receiving the love and the peace I try to pass on to you. But I’m glad we had a good connection last night, and I’d like more of that. The more we can hug each other, the better we’ll both feel. That’s what I wanted when I asked you to hold me and hug me when you came in April, and it felt good, but it wasn’t enough, ‘cause I also needed to tell you more, and I just couldn’t. But now I can. Now you know everything, and you still love me. You know it works both ways, you think you need forgiveness, but I do too. But it’s all going to bear fruit in the end, Jesus promised me. If you can hold on to that thought, to the beauty, to the freedom, to the peace Jesus gave you last night, then it’s gonna bear so much fruit in your life. I know part of you resents that, you don’t want to benefit one bit from my death. But I’m not dead, that’s what you need to understand. I just left my shell behind, but I’m alive, so alive! I will never, ever die! That’s why Jesus died for us, so I wouldn’t have to die. When my life on earth ended, it was only my physical shell that died, not my spirit. He has redeemed me for eternity, and I get to live it freely. I continue to learn, I continue to grow. Everything fascinates me. You know me. I’m so happy. I’m getting all the knowledge I ever hungered for, and more. So much more!

I’d like to start on a more positive channel this new year that we’re physically apart, cause we can be closer actually than we have ever been. It’ll be so much more fun, so much more uplifting, and it’ll even help me for what I do here to help more people, cause I won’t be so burdened about you. I still have long ways to go with my brother and sister, it will take even longer with them, but if you can pray for them, Mommy, I would really appreciate it. And pray for me too to be able to get through to them, to find their key. Jesus is helping me of course, but it’s amazing how much He’s also leaving up to me, to my faith for things, to my knowledge of people. It’s so amazing how much freedom He gives me. I wish at times (many times) He took more control of things, but no, He leaves so much up to me, to my concern, to my faith, and to our prayers. So pray for them, ok? I know you do, but you also feel very weary, very tired. But I want to tell you not to ever get discouraged to pray for them. It helps so much. It helps us so much, and it helps bring greater and faster results.

I knew today would be a special day for you, so I was looking forward to it and I was not about to let it pass. Also, when you work on my blog, you can open your channel a bit more, if you know what I mean, so we can make it like a time we’re spending together, like when we used to work on my portfolios and stuff. I know you do already to a certain extent, that’s why you feel so good about it afterwards, but if you can say a little prayer first before you start, so the Lord can really give us good, clear communication, it will turn out even better, you’ll see, and it will not only do you good, but it will reach more people too.

Searching for Heaven

17/10/12 You need to keep on resting in Jesus’ arms and let Him carry you, heal you, fill you, love you. I love you so much and I’m having so much fun helping to make things happen for you. It’s part of my healing also, you know, to make things happen for you. I also help other people that Jesus sends me to, but helping you makes me happy. It gives me peace and healing.

You remember what joy I derived from preparing birthday or Christmas presents for people? Well, it’s the same joy, just multiplied many times over. So I’m having the time of my life, besides all the other wonders I’m able to enjoy being in Heaven. This is my home, it’s always been, and I longed for it. I kept looking for it through God’s earth creations, because that’s what my whole being yearned for. I’m so happy. All is perfection, beauty, peace, love, freedom. It’s just wonderful. And discovering glimpses of Heaven upon earth is a wonderful quest, one that you should never abandon. That’s what will motivate you to live a life of purpose, and bring relief and happiness into others’ lives. So keep on seeking and searching for Heaven. It’s not far away, and it’s all around you, and I’m more than happy to show you glimpses here and there as often and as much as you like. I love you.

Life is beautiful

23/09/2012 Whenever you think of me, even if I’m actually busy with something, the Lord’s given me the ability to catch it and to commune with you, it’s so special and I’m so thankful the Lord’s given us that when we’re on the other side. It’s a bit like when your phone beeps and lets you know a sms came, my spirit is notified when you think of me and can commune in this way. At times, I can also be totally devoted to what you’re doing. But I’m never far way. Until you come over to this side, we’ll always be connected.

Jesus has totally washed me clean. He’s totally, completely renewed me, so that I now can fully be what He wanted me to be all along. Anything wonderful about me is only Him, really. Also all you have taught me, the life of faith you’ve given me, teaching me to love Him from a very young age.

Life is beautiful, and it will make me so happy if you can enjoy it to the full, so enjoy it for me, all the things I didn’t get to do, I can do them through you now, so don’t hold back, live it and love it and I will partake of it too through you. Just keep on giving love, and enjoying the love He’s given you. It’s so simple. So simple. Yet so beautiful. I love you.