Where I belong

7/02/12 I’m truly happy here, my life is so wonderful. I get to do everything my heart used to yearn for, and even far more, far more. It’s amazing in every way. I get to discover so much. I know I belong here, that Heaven is my home. It’s always been. I was just on earth for a little time, and I did convey the Lord’s love and care to those He wanted me to. I got tempted to go for the earthly things, but it didn’t work out, it wasn’t His overall main plan for me. He wanted me to just continue loving others with His love. Nothing on earth is perfect. Lack of love hurt me deeply, more deeply than I was willing to admit. Anyway, all that to say that it’s all for the better, just like I told you. I know it’s hard for you to accept, but you need to believe me, because it’s true. It’s all for the better. Me coming back to Heaven was the Lord, ‘cause that’s where I belong, and my mission on earth had already been fulfilled. Jesus wants you to find true peace, forgiveness, and joy again. I love you.

Healing

25/01/12 Jesus is so wonderful. He’s the best healer of all, the one and only really. He healed my body of course, but also my spirit, my soul, my everything. And He’s going to do the same for you and dad, for my sister and brother too. He’s going to heal your hearts and you will be able to keep on living the life He’s meant for you to live. I love you.

Design School

18/01/12  There’s something I’ve been trying to tell you which I hope will cheer you up, is how much fun it is to be up here and to get to do what I’m doing. It’s so much fun to try to influence people, to help people without them knowing, to be instrumental in helping answer someone’s secret prayers. I see this school (Blair’s Academy) and I am tempted to think that it is the type of school I would have loved to go to, and then I see how much better it is to attend heaven’s school. Learning graphic design was my dream, but now I’m learning another kind of design, I’m learning about character design, mood design, habit design, emotion design, soul design.  I used to enjoy encouraging people, those who were sad or lost or lonely. Now it’s wonderful to be able to help them in an even bigger way. It’s not easy, so it’s a real challenge for me. I have so much to learn but I love learning.

 Jesus has given me permission to help you with your complaint to the doctors. It’s important that you do it, it means a lot to me and it could make a difference for other patients. But I want you to know that I have forgiven these doctors, and you will need to also forgive them and let them know. You can make your point, because they do need to be reminded of their commitment, they need to be reminded how precious life is, and what a great responsibility it is, and how much they need God’s help. How they cannot rely on tests and science, but they need God and they need love and compassion. So you can be God’s instrument to remind them of that. But you still need to forgive. Then it will bear good fruit.

My home in Heaven

7/01/12 You know how much I love learning new things, and this time it’s not overwhelming. The only thing that’s overwhelming is the love Jesus has for me, and how much He values the little I did on earth. My heart still hurts to see you in so much pain, but I know it will get easier and Jesus promised me He’s going to work it all out for good in the end, that He’s going to heal every heart. I’ve begged Him to not allow people to become bitter or angry at Him because of me, so I have to trust He’s going to work it all out.

I wanted to tell you that there’s sooooooo much I want to tell you. I’m discovering so much, Heaven is way more wonderful than I’d imagined, and for sure it’s going to take me eternity to explore it all. You know, how I said I needed 10 lives to do everything I wanted to do? Well, I’ve got my 10 lives now to do it all, I’ve got way more, I’ve got eternity. I’ll be able to do not only what I wanted, actually some of the stuff I wanted to do doesn’t really matter to me anymore, has become of non importance, but there are so many others I want to learn and do, it’s wonderful. I’m so happy, Heaven is definitely the place where I fit the best.

I can’t tell you every single thing, but we can commune heart to heart also, and I can show you things, I can share some of my thoughts with you and show you glimpses of how wonderful Heaven is.

I have a beautiful, beautiful mansion. Definitely better than my flat in Angers. It’s everything I could have ever desired. I keep it a little bit messy, just a touch artistic, and I can paint. I’m enjoying every moment of my eternity. I have music playing all around me, angels singing. I have a beautiful grand piano too, and I’m learning violin. Absolutely everything my heart desired is there for me. I even have a desk where I can write with an old quill like in the old days. I’m learning calligraphy. I have also started to meet people. Like famous people. But I’m taking my time. I have to get myself organized.

Christmas in Heaven

24/12/11 I just want to tell you how much I love you. Please don’t cry. I’m fine now. I understand. Everything has become clear. Jesus is going to make it all turn out good. What’s important for you to know is that everything is fine and beautiful now. There is no condemnation. It’s still hard for me to comprehend the magnitude of His love for me. He’s made all the dark clouds fly away, all the bad black birds disappear. It’s all blue skies now, and butterflies. So many beautiful butterflies, that land on my hands, on my fingers. And I can even fly along with them it’s wonderful. Jesus has given me peace today. He told me you also received peace from Him, and He’s given me peace that you’re going to be ok. 

I’m having my very first Christmas in Heaven and I’m so happy. It’s different than what I expected, it’s even better. I won’t be in on everything, because I chose to be with you, but I’ll still partake of the praise and the glory, the beauty of the angels’ choirs. It’s magnificent, all the greatest musicians playing their praises throughout Heaven, all the angels singing and dancing and praising Jesus, I can’t describe it, but it’s wonderful. Love is everywhere. It’s tangible, it’s miraculous, and it continues to heal every soul. It embraces the whole world, the whole earth, all the pain and misery and it brings peace and soothes all the hurts. There is an overwhelming dispensation of ministering angels who are on a mission throughout the earth for Christmas day so people can be comforted in a special way, and feel the Lord’s presence and comfort in some way, if they just but give one thought to Jesus, they will feel Him, or a touch of His love in some way. Even departed saints go on this mission, not just angels. Maybe next year I will go too. Well, I am already going in a way, since I’ll be with you. I’m in no hurry to go on any big mission. The most important thing for me now is to fully heal, to get fully cleansed and regenerated, get refilled with Jesus’ Holy Spirit, and to do my part to help you, my family, to heal from the hurt my death has caused you. But I want you to know that I am truly, fully, totally, completely happy. Happier than I’ve ever been in my earthly life. I did love my earthly life, so I’m glad you brought that out for everyone to see. I want people to remember the good and the happy. You did give me a wonderful childhood. You only gave me good, love, joy, even abundance. I see it all so clearly now, so don’t worry any more. Just think that Heaven is not far away.