Happy birthday Mommy

16/04/2013 I love you so much and it makes me happy when I can be around you and participate in what you’re doing, and throw some help here and there. You know, by helping you, the Lord is giving me a chance to continue what I let go off on earth. It’s never too late with Jesus. He always makes a way to redemption. He always makes it possible for us to make amends, to receive forgiveness, to make up for what we missed or where we failed. He’s that wonderful. We may miss some of the blessings, some of the rewards, but there’s always hope, there’s always a way, it’s never too late.

Ok here’s my chance! I want to tell you something. I know it may not be easy for you to do, but I’d like to ask you to try something. Can you try to no longer be sad about me? ‘Cause so much precious time and emotions are wasted on being sad. When I’m with you, or when I tune in to you, I’d like to see you happy and fulfilled. I’d like to continue helping you as much as I can, and I’d like for all this sadness to be gone, you know. ‘Cause when you’re sad it makes me sad and it’s a vicious cycle. But I think the Lord has brought enough peace to your heart now, I think the devil has been defeated; I think you’ve made peace with yourself as well. It’s like, whatever your sins have been, the Lord has forgiven you, and I have forgiven you. So I’d really like to move on and have fun together now. Can we? Can we enjoy each other? There’s nothing holding us back now. You have nothing to worry about any more concerning me, so we should be able to simply love each other and enjoy each other and I can help you as much as I’m able and we can have a great time together. It will make me so happy, because the more I partake of your life, the more it helps me make up for what I lost. It’s my chance to redeem myself. So if you want to make me happy, let’s turn the page and let’s start on a new journey together, hand in hand. I can finally become all the help you wished I could be for you. Well, it will be a bit different of course, but it will be better, ‘cause I can actually do more from Up here than I could from earth. So what do you say? Can we try? I’d really like this year to be a new and a fresh start, and to walk this road with you, for you to feel me next to you, maybe not all the time, but a good chunk of the time, and we can share this life the Lord’s given you. This is what you can do for me, you can now share your life with me. The life I left behind, Jesus can give it back to me through you. And what better life than the life of service you have chosen. The life I wanted to go back to once I had graduated. Well I did graduate alright. I don’t know what kind of present that is for you. I did want to give you a birthday present. I love giving presents, especially to you. I’m glad you’re wearing this silver chain I gave you, and the earrings I gave you and those I left behind. It makes me happy, you know. I love you so much. Well, the Lord told me that was the best present I could give you. So here it is: I will share as much of your life and live as much of your life with you as the Lord will let me. Of course, I’m committed to helping in whatever ways He needs me, but apparently, you are important to Him, and He does want me to be with you a good chunk of time. So let’s live this life together. I know it’s always been your heart’s desire, to have your children by your side, sharing your life. Well here I am. This is my birthday present to you, to be by your side. I love you. So no more sadness, promise? Only joy and happiness and happy memories. I’ll help you finish my blog quickly, so we can close off the sad ending, and I’ll help you give it a real upbeat final touch that will lead people to Heaven. I love you, Mommy. Happy birthday! We’re having a big feast up Here today in your honor. You’re a special person to the Lord, you know. You have helpers who are very thankful to be with you. All sins forgiven and forgotten! It’s a new day! I love you. 

Heavenly assignments

4/3/2013 I can’t regret the earthly life I missed, I just can’t go there, the Lord is not asking me to, on the contrary He’s been so gentle, so kind, He’s healed my heart and all the wrong that was troubling me and making me miserable, He’s healed it all, so I’m really OK. I’m learning so much, and I get to experience and do all I wanted, and even more, way more. It’s beyond imagination. I have assignments too now, I’m helping and it’s cool. I really enjoy doing that. I know you appreciate my help, and I also want to make you proud, and I think you’ll be proud and it’ll  make you happy when you get to see what I’ve done from Here, the different people and situations I’ve helped. Well, it’s all only Jesus, but it’s very fulfilling for me to have a part in it. I actually like it and find it very fulfilling. Jesus knows best, and He knows how to turn into good even the worse we do as humans. He’s just amazing and I’m so thankful to have known Him. It’s made things so much easier for me. Of course He’s wonderful for everybody who comes Up here, but it’s been much easier for me than for others who didn’t really know Him so well, so intimately. So I’m thankful, Mommy, that you told me about Jesus from when I was real little. I love you.

Jesus won

4/02/13:  Thanks for the blog (www.natalieannevolpe.blogspot.com). It’s beautiful. I really like it. And it does make me happy to see others benefiting from it. It’s so funny and it’s humbling, ‘cause now I can see so many different options, or different ways of doing things that I didn’t see then. That’s life. I know I can’t come back to earth in the physical, but the Lord is so sweet and so wonderful and is giving me so many chances and opportunities to affect things on this earth with the people I love and who love me. It’s really neat and wonderful. I’m very thankful. It’s like I thought it would be all over, no going back, and although it’s true in a way, the world of the spirit is so much greater and so much more amazing than I could have ever imagined, and the Lord is so incredible that He actually does make a way for me to come and fix some of the mess I caused. I’m so thankful for that. It helps others but it also brings healing to me, to my spirit. It’s so wonderful to be totally out of the devil’s reach. Even if I still see his dirty work and the way he hinders people and situations, he has no grip on me any longer, I belong to Jesus forever and Jesus holds me so close, the devil cannot even get near me, and I’m so very thankful. It’s just wonderful. He thought he had me, he thought he had won, but Jesus won in the end, in spite of all my mistakes, in spite of all I did, Jesus won because I belonged to Him. I love you.

Happy Christmas!

23/12/12 I want to wish you a Happy Christmas now, cause I know it’s gonna be busy for you the next few days. I’ll be coming along, I want you to know that, even though you already know. I’ll do my best to help. I miss you and I miss the kids. I remember the last Christmas I had there in Congo, and even though I was a bit sick, it’s been one of my best Christmases, just like the Lord had told me. I felt I really made a difference and brought these kids love and joy. It makes me happy to think about it, that’s why I want to come along this year too. And don’t worry, I’ll have plenty of time to celebrate in Heaven too! Actually, most of our celebration I think is going to be celebrating what humans do to make Jesus happy! So it’s all part of it. I’m so happy you’re celebrating this year. I love you.

I understand also better that you all miss me and I’m learning to accept it, I’m learning not to be sad over it, but to receive it as an act of love, your love for me. I wish we could chat for hours on end, there’s so much I’d like to share with you, but I’m realizing it’s not practical or even possible to do so. I need to let you attend to what you have to do, and also part of Heaven’s wonders is the discovery of it when people get here. You already know a lot about Heaven, but knowing too much wouldn’t be so beneficial. Someone explained that to me, when I was getting frustrated that I couldn’t spend more time with you to describe it all. It’s actually hard to put into words. That’s why there are other artistic forms to communicate, through music, songs, paintings, sculptures, poetry. But still, even though some art does communicate what Heaven is like, it’s so limited, and so hard so communicate precisely what it’s like. It’s way beyond words, beyond feelings, beyond colors, beyond music. It’s all encompassing, all healing, pure beauty, pure ecstasy. I actually want to dedicate eternity to it, trying to communicate to humans what Heaven’s like. I want to advertise Heaven. Right now I’m helping people, you guys of course and those  the Lord asks me to. And I’m helping on the creation team. But I have so much to learn. And I’m learning! I’m studying. I’m realizing that some of the stuff I want to do for myself will have to wait a bit until after the millennium, ‘cause time is kind of short and there’s a lot to do right now to help people on earth. So I have to focus on that. So I’m learning how to best advertise Heaven, how to help people come to the Lord while there’s still time, how to communicate things about Heaven to artists and people in general. It’s a challenge, but I love it. It’s really the most important thing, helping people find Jesus, loving people, pointing them towards Heaven, and giving people glimpses of Heaven through different means. That’s what I’m focusing on right now. There’s so much I want to do, that hasn’t changed, it’s even grown bigger than you can imagine. But what’s exciting, is that I know that I’ll eventually get around to it all. ‘Cause time will be no more. While earth’s still around, I have to tune in to that and time has its place and it’s ticking away. But I love being busy, you know that. Thank you for making this Christmas special for so many people. Thank you also for all you continue to do for me. I love you so much. I can’t even tell you how much I love you. My saddest Christmas ever was the one I spent in France without you. And the one before that was one of my best ones. Although all my childhood Christmases have also been wonderful. You made them wonderful. Thank you. I love you.

Twenty first birthday

9/12/12 Thanks for the birthday greetings, and all the love and all you continue to do for me, for publishing all these things I left behind. I do hope it will help someone. I would never have done it myself, but I’m happy you’re doing it for me, prolonging my life in this way and hopefully touching other lives, bringing them closer to Jesus. There’s so much I’d like to tell you and share with you. It’s so neat, I was able to get a peek into my former heavenly birthday parties. You remember all the ones you used to tell me about when I was little. Well it was very real, so amazing and so cool. They have it all recorded here, so I’m having fun looking through them, both what I did on earth and what happened in Heaven at the time. That’s loads of fun. Mommy, you gave me such a good life. I had such a happy childhood.

I’m getting to meet so many people, artists and musicians and also simple people, missionaries. I’m so interested in everything, you know me. I’m also getting to know my little brother. I had no idea he was watching over me all these years. I remember well about him, I used to talk to him when I was little, but then I forgot. But he was there. We’re having fun. I’m so happy he’s here, Mommy. He was here to welcome me. It’s really nice when you have someone from your personal family to welcome you to Heaven and show you around. There are my grandparents and my great grandparents also of course, and they’re wonderful. It’s really nice to get to know them also. But Batir was special. I don’t know yet what’s cooking for me today, but it’s gonna be good. I really don’t feel like I deserve any fuss, I feel like a big blow it in so many ways, but all I receive is love, love, love from every side and from everyone. I feel so undeserving, but it sure feels good. Love heals up everything, every heartache, every hurt, every pain, every sin, every mistake. Love is so wonderful. I’ve been receiving so much love that I’m all healed up now. Last year my birthday was a bit different, ‘cause you were all grieving so much, and I was with you all, doing my best to comfort everyone but I wasn’t very good at it. Also I was still in my healing stage, in my waterfall place. I may drop by there today, actually. Maybe I can help comfort some people who are there. Or chat with them. The Lord’s love is what comforts them, not me. But chatting helps. I know it helped me when different ones came to chat with me.

If you have time later, you can tune in and I can tell you what my party’s like. You know me, I’m not much of a party girl. So we’ll see what happens. In any case, it feels good to be 21. I used to be so scared of turning 21 for some reason when I was on earth. But here, not scared at all. I love you.

(My 2^nd birthday in Heaven) It was wonderful of course, as you can imagine. It was real special. The Lord knows I don’t particularly enjoy big flashy parties, so it was just perfect. He had invited some special people, people I always desired I could have met while on earth, people I had a particular interest in. It was real special, that these people would even come to my birthday, ‘cause I’m just nobody. And each one got to share something with me that was of pure interest to me. I’m sure you can guess who some of them were. And you know what, since then, I’ve been able to visit some of them again and learn more from them. So yes, Einstein was there, and it was amazing what a closeness I felt towards him, truly amazing. I mean I was in awe that he would be there in person to my birthday, and he was so humble, so simple. Now he’s someone who knows about condemnation. I’ll have to tell you more about what he shared another time. He reminded me of the time I sat on his lap so to speak, on the lap of the huge statue of him in Washington, DC. We both chuckled about it, it was fun.

Then Mozart was there, Bach as well, and we enjoyed such heavenly music together, it was so neat ‘cause I also got to see which angels were inspiring them when they composed, oh it was truly awesome. Someone else was Steve Jobs, whom I had met earlier, so you see, he did make it to Heaven. Leonardo da Vinci was there also. I mean it was incredible. It was a real nice setting, I actually was in my mansion and these people came over, just as if they had planned a surprise party for me. We had snacks and drinks and relaxed and chatted, with heavenly music all around. It was just wonderful. I wish you’d been there, I think you would have really enjoyed it as well. We even danced. Yep, I was never much of a dancer, but in Heaven it’s really fun, ‘cause I can float if I want, and it just comes easily, to let the music carry me, it’s quite pleasurable actually, a brand-new experience. Dickens was there also, and Tolkien. Victor Hugo also, as even though I never got to read his novels in French, he really wanted to come and knew I would love to meet him. A very, very special and great man, yet so humble now before the Lord. He actually hugged me as if I was his daughter and he told me he helped you these past months, isn’t that true? He said he’d love to meet up again with me and teach me about writing poetry, although he said the Lord had given me real talent and he’d like to help me improve on it so I can help inspire other writers still on earth, isn’t that neat? There were also some famous French painters, like Monet and Renoir. Oh that was so wonderful! Jesus is truly wonderful. And do you remember Yusef, the little boy from Kikimi who died of malaria? Well he came too! He hugged me and he was so sweet and so happy to see me in Heaven. There were other people too, and of course everyone who knew me said something nice about me, like something I did that made their life happier and it was so special to hear of course. It was interesting too, ‘cause some of these people were already in Heaven when I was born, so it was kind of funny and unreal that I could have done something for them, it was more the other way around. But anyway it was wonderful and I had a great time. I was going to say the most wonderful birthday ever, but I don’t want you to feel bad as if the birthdays you organized for me on earth were not nice, but then the Lord told me to say it anyway, not to worry, that you’d understand of course that birthdays in heaven are better than on earth. I love you xxx.