On the other side of the veil

31/07/13 I’ve changed a lot, being on this side of the veil has changed me a lot. I’ve been through various stages, the Lord has been so patient with me, He’s just let me go at my own pace, and He supplied helpers along the way to assist me, to teach me what I needed to know, to help me overcome some things that were hindering me, also to help some people I wanted to help but didn’t feel I could handle by myself. You know something really, really neat, is that we’re never alone in Heaven. You remember how much I enjoyed being alone at times, but I also suffered from loneliness, it was weird and I didn’t really know how to cope with these contradictory feelings. But here, in this realm, there’s always someone special to buddy with, depending on what I need to do or what I need to learn, or what I’m going through. Heaven is all perfection of course, but I’m not, ha! I still have so much to learn, but you know how much I love learning, so it’s not a problem for me at all, on the contrary. I just love what I learn here. It’s hard sometimes, it’s not like everything comes super easy like I had imagined, I have to work at things, and I often need help, but it’s so cool. Jesus is always present, He’s so wonderful and I have found such peace, the peace I longed for but could never attain, it’s here with me forever now and it’s really wonderful. Sometimes I see things that are difficult for me, like when you’re sad, or to see F. struggling so hard, but the difference is that I still have this peace, I know the Lord’s gonna take care of it all in the end. It’s still hard for me to see people suffer, especially the people I loved, and especially if they’re suffering because of me, but then the Lord’s peace makes it easier to bear, and I can do something to help them, which is also wonderful.

Happy Mother's Day!

12/5/13 Mommy, I want to wish you Happy Mother’s Day, and I’ll wish you again on the 26th, and every single day of your life! I love you so much, Mommy! You’ve been the best mom ever. I couldn’t have wished for a better mom. You’ve given me so much! So much love, so much of everything. You gave me your life, really, you taught me everything you knew, you respected me, you gave me love and freedom to be myself as well. You taught me about Jesus, that was the best part, really, the best of all, ‘cause that kept me through everything. He was there all the time, holding me, helping me, whispering to me. And I owe it to you, Mommy, ‘cause you’re the one who taught me about Jesus. I can’t even remember a time I didn’t know about Jesus. And when I tried at 15 to declare myself an atheist, for one horrible year, He still came through for me, and the reason I could recognize His voice among so many others was because of you, Mommy, or rather thanks to you, because you taught me how to recognize His voice. All my doubts fled away after that experience, that was awesome. So I want to thank you, again and again, for being my mommy and for all you’ve done for me. I love you forever and I’m so thankful for you.